Update on the weight loss journey:
I've lost 45 lbs. I’m only 15 lbs. away from my goal weight. I’ve also gone from a size 20 to a size 14 (and the 14’s are loose fitting). Only a few sizes to go...
My body has made an incredible transformation. I am both ecstatic and terrified of the new me. I feel like I’ve shed a weight consisting of more than mere fat cells. The weight of fear has been lifted as well. But it has been replaced with a new anxiety, fear of being seen without the walls that used to keep the world out. Being seen as I truly am. Am I ready for scrutinizing eyes behind my defenses? The answer is a resounding YES.
The other unexpected discovery: I can see my toes without having to lean over my cleavage. This makes me mad with happiness. I can stare down and see tiny painted piggies smiling back at me. A glorious feeling. My toes and I have had a long and tumultuous relationship, a love affair. It’s good to see these old friends back in my line of sight. I am going to treat them to a vacation where they can wiggle their sweet freedom. I hope Texas is ready for an invasion, my tiny feet and I.
